Last summer I applied for a job and, whilst I was nervous about re-entering the workplace, the job was 11 hours a week answering the phones and smiling at clients. It was suggested to me that I might get bored but I thought "at least it will get me out and meeting people". I soon discovered there was a lot more to the role than I had first thought. Fast forward 5 months and I am Practice Manager, working with a team of amazingly talented, intelligent, funny, supportive folk and I am loving every minute of it.
One of the perks of working in a therapy centre is that we get to use the therapies on offer. So far I have tried Indian Head Massage (blissful and sooo relaxing) and Remedial Massage (not so relaxing but after just 2 treatments I have significantly less pain in my leg and am swimming again!). This week I decided it was time I tried Hypnotherapy. I have had hypnotherapy for dental phobia whilst in India and it worked wonders at helping me overcome a deep seated problem with wanting to hit the dentist and run for my life! I haven't felt the urge to attack any dentists since then so I thought maybe hypnotherapy could help me again. I wasn't altogether sure what I wanted help with though.........motivation maybe? To calm the panicky feeling of being unable to control certain aspects of my life over the last couple of years? To move forward and let go of the past? I really wasn't sure what I wanted to achieve or what outcome I expected.........hmmm perhaps I could have my indecisiveness "hypnotised away"???? I admit I was feeling some nervousness and perhaps a little cynicism (I know - me being cynical - imagine that!), but the therapist soon put me at ease. The session lasted just over an hour and felt like a mixture of hypnotherapy and counselling. I learned so much about myself during that time! Some things I already knew but wasn't acknowledging; some things I hadn't been aware of before and some things that I was keeping hidden away. Every single one of those "things" lead to further revelations and realisations. So what did I take away from the session? It turns out that ....... I AM NOT RUBBISH! I have spent a lot of time believing that I am rubbish; rubbish wife; rubbish mum; rubbish friend; my hair is rubbish; I'm a rubbish athlete and on.........and on........and..........it simply isn't true! WOW! I also learned that I am capable of making my own decisions and choices, I DO NOT NEED VALIDATION from anyone except myself. I also now know that I am going to be just fine because EVERYTHING I NEED IS INSIDE ME. Powerful realisations!! Since the session I have felt a calmness in my head that is difficult to articulate; all those thoughts running around inside my head; the worries about pleasing other people; concerns about making the wrong decisions - they are all in a big suitcase on a plane heading for Africa. It took two porters to help me lug that suitcase through check-in! I am left with calmness and confidence and it feels wonderful!! I feel energised and optimistic about my future for the first time in 2 years. I chose the date and time for the session deliberately, 4th Feb at 10am, and I have now reclaimed that date and time - 4th Feb is now just a date on the calendar and not a day to be feared. Oh yes, something else I learned; waves are a powerful force and red is the new pink...............
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