I imagine most female gym-goers have seen "her" - the skinny blonde girl who struts around the changing rooms naked, jiggling her perfect, perky boobs as she watches herself in the mirror. Well today I met "her" and she made such an impact on me that I feel the need to write to her.............
Dear Skinny Blonde Girl, When we met in the changing rooms this morning I was really surprised when you started a conversation with me as I find that most women in the changing rooms at that particular gym tend to avoid making eye contact or speaking to one another. I must admit to feeling a little intimidated by your blonde gorgeousness, especially as you kept spinning around so that you could see your bum in the mirror. Your opening comment to me of "Oh I think you're so brave!" had me a little confused initially, but you were more than happy to explain what you meant. "I think you're so brave to wear a swimsuit at your size" you kindly explained. "My grandma absolutely refuses to go in the pool coz she says she looks like a beached whale and she's nowhere near as big as you. I'm gonna tell her that today I saw a really big lady who wasn't bothered what she looked like". First of all I must apologise for walking away without responding to you - it was very rude of me. Secondly I would like to say thank you. Your thoughtless comments made me feel embarrassed and humiliated but it gave me something to think about during my swim. At first all I could think was that I hate my body, it's too big; it's too soft; it's too round! I'm embarrassed by it and I hate it!! Then I saw you gracefully slide into the pool in your tiny little pink bikini. Oh great, now Skinny Blonde Girl is going to show me up in the pool. So I put my head in the water and swam; and swam and swam and gradually I became aware of a little pink blur as I swam passed it. Then I passed it again; and again and again! As it dawned on me that I was lapping you in the pool I thought - "Watch my fat mermaid ass pass you again Skinny Blonde Girl!" And that got me thinking about my "embarrassing" body and all it can do. So I dedicated each further lap to my body's many amazing achievements; the 2 beautiful daughters it has produced; the triathlon it completed; the Loch Ness swim that it conquered; the way it can always give me one more rep in the weights room; the way it has got me through the dark days when my head has been telling me to give up; it's ability to get down on the floor to play silly games with my grandson. So, Skinny Blonde Girl, I give you many, many thanks because your thoughtless comments have led me to love and celebrate my amazing, soft, round, gorgeous body. Sincerely Fat Girl Swims
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